I have done a lot of searching and soul digging to find this elusive authentic me. I have worried and stressed I would never find her and would be stuck in a me that didn't feel 100% aligned and present. Little did I know, she is here and I am her.
I hear a lot about being authentically you and have even made it a part of my purpose to help other women find their authentic selves, step into them fully, and live the life they dream of living. But what does it mean to be your authentic self? And how do I know if I am or am not being her already?!
I am a big lover of looking up the definitions of words, even words I know, to get a deeper understanding of their meaning and intention.
For authentic the dictionary defines it in these 3 ways:
of undisputed origin; genuine.
made or done in the traditional or original way, or in a way that faithfully resembles an original.
(in existentialist philosophy) relating to or denoting an emotionally appropriate, significant, purposive, and responsible mode of human life.
These are wonderful definitions, but I find myself asking even more questions: who/what is the genuine me? Original me? Original woman? Appropriate and responsible (these two words make me uneasy because who is deciding what is appropriate and responsible)? Resembling what original? The original divine feminine? Wild woman?
I believe being authentically you is very personal. It is the you that, when you are being her, you are vibrating at a higher frequency. You are speaking your truths, acting through these truths, and feeling that restful peace within your heart.
For me, authenticity is saying what I want to say, acting how I want to act, doing what I want to do without the worry or restrictions of what others want me to say, act, do, feel. Leaning all the way into my purpose and passion without fear also feels like I am being the me I have been longing to be. I love magic, divine feminine, nature, music, energy, being a mother, compassion, healing, love.
Sometimes I think I want to say something and by not saying it maybe I am not being authentic, but I do not think that is correct. Sometimes when I am emotionally charged and want to react, I take a moment, dig deep, and think about a situation a little longer before reacting. Through this process I realize, authentically, I do not want to respond in that particular manner because it does not align with my purpose or energy.
From past abuse and trauma my mind and body goes into fight mode very easily. However, I do not need that any more. I am safe, I am loved, I am whole. It was very hard for me to let go of my angers' hand, thank it for protecting me my whole life, and gently let it know that that energy no longer serves me. I love you for being there, for making me strong, but I am strong in a different way now and need to part ways.
At the end of the day, be the you YOU want to be.
Kind, funny, goofy, serious, secluded, outrageous, refined, magical, religious, spiritual, introspective...whatever moves your soul and raises your vibration. That is the authentic you calling from deep inside.